I have some catching up to do in chem, mostly reading and practice problems, though I also have to do my post/pre-lab reports. That is a given, the chem lab reports. No one who wants to have a degree in science can get away from the required chem series, and no one taking chem can escape the series of lab writeups and safety quizzes.
Amber is working in the DC now, though we're on completely different shifts.
There is something here now that is getting more and more pronounced with the passage of time. Something that almost 'looms'...yes, such as the thing deadlines tend to do, over the horizon. I think it's the realization that the end of the year is getting gradually and inevitably closer. Most of the people I've talked to, when considering this, responded in various stages of shell-shocked I-can't-believe-it-s. When you look back at it, you can still remember the individual days and various incidents, but it takes very little for the days to blur together, smudged by time as we're hurled toward the next step.
Wherever that may be.
It's the sort of feeling you find early in the morning, just as everyone's getting up (alright, maybe not that EARLY), in the sudden pauses in the conversations. I wonder if anyone else noticed the slight hesitation before the laughter, the almost unnoticeable tension.
It's nearly the end of the first year, and most of us are no closer to knowing what will become of us or which direction we are meant to travel than we were a year ago. The realization that this will not hit us, a sudden epiphany, on the back of the head like a badly-aimed frisbee is starting to register and causing all sorts of things in the freshman psyche. Going to college is not the solution to the problems. Far from it.
So help us...us.
1 comment:
the quarter system isn't helping.
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