Currently: disagreeing with PI on experimental protocol, on data interpretation, on dissertation, on manuscript, and on presentation. Had a minor melt down and contemplated the fact that although I like it when people tell me "you're going to be fine", being told to "relax" actually makes me more and more tense because my mind heads into "yes I know I'm supposed to relax and I am trying to relax but I also know that I'm not but I'm trying why am I not relaxing I'm supposed to relax asdf still not relaxing WHY I NEED TO RELAX alsdhjgoweebngo I'M EVEN MORE TENSE NOW BREATHE" and then, you know, melt down.

Also my shoulder hurts because being on the computer all the time combined with drawing on tablet combined with loading a bunch of experiment plates that have 96 wells that are about 5mm across without touching more than one side of the wells without passing my hand, wrist, or arm over the plate, combined with drills with a wooden practice sword is apparently the limit. There is spasming. I resent it immensely and am reduced to whining on the internet and consoling myself with tea and ice cream.