PI still not reading dissertation. Am being pushed even more because we have a competitor but he refuses to consider anything except proof of that particular protein interaction. Because I do have a sense of self-preservation, I refrained from pointing out that this is science and we can't really PROVE anything, only fail to disprove it. I did point out that protein interactions change depending on the pH, the time of day, the salt concentration, the detergent concentration, the cell type, the way the samples are prepared, to which he replied that he knows and it ends, as it tends to end these days, with the two of us staring at each other for a long moment before he tells me "Get it done." and leaving.

It'd be more tolerable if there's less follow up of the "why isn't it done yet. I wanted it done YESTERDAY. I wanted it done TEN YEARS AGO" variety. (I wish I was joking. He literally said the ten years ago thing to which I replied that THAT is a bit beyond my powers. My sense of self-preservation is not perfect.) Then there's the thinly veiled hint that perhaps I should be working harder and I am experiencing guilt at taking the time to practice some kind of self-care.

Basically I'm not sure if I can even meet my August deadline and have spend my hours not working convincing myself that I don't care, because it's the only way I can deal with it. That and murdering fictional people.

Also between stress-induced insomnia and Independence Day (my neighborhood is close to the beach and noisy until well-past midnight) and lab stuff (had to go in yesterday) am very tired.